This post has been in the works since sophomore year of high
school; it has taken me a year and a half to gain base fitness, 11 months to
plan, and 14 weeks to train. All this amounted to one very nervous me standing
on a start line at 6 AM yesterday morning. This was the Mountains 2 Beach
Marathon, but the battle had been fought on the long runs and sore muscles and
trial-and-errors and self-doubt and self-reliance of the past 3+ months. The
only thing left to do yesterday, I tried to convince myself, was hold on for the ride.
My spectacular family had driven all the way down to Ventura
(an hour south of Santa Barbara) with me for this race. My sneaky sister had
previously told me she couldn’t make it to this mini-milestone, but, of course,
was waiting for me when I walked out of my apartment on Saturday morning to
begin our adventure. What a lovely, unexpected surprise! With my parents, my
best friend, and my sister all in toe, we made our way down the coast. All the
while their high spirits were both hugely comforting and mildly stressful, as I
knew I’d share either a great triumph or a relatively crushing disappointment
with them in the next 36 hours.
After a six-hour car ride, 2 huge meals, and a whole lot of
‘together’ time, I was at last crawling into a lumpy hotel bed hoping for some
restful z’s before my 4 AM wake up. And, naturally, none were to be had. So after maybe 3 hours of sleep, my gracious
mom and I were climbing into the car and heading to the start line. This
wonderful lady drove me 35 minutes into the mountains on windy backroads so I
could avoid the 3 AM wake up required to catch my allotted shuttle time. How
great is my mom? Really though, that’s love.
Now the start was pretty smooth, especially because the race
was relatively small. I started in the fastest heat (a triumph on its own) and
before I could even really get a handle on what was going on, we were counting
down to the start gun. Off we flew! I found myself feeling like I was flying
and it felt great! When I took a glimpse at my watch at mile 1, I realized I
was indeed flying – about 30 seconds faster than goal-pace – in fact. My primary
concern for this course was that I would hit the first 16 miles too fast, since
they were almost entirely downhill, and burn myself out for the last 10. And
try as I might to regulate my speed, I couldn’t seem to drop back to an easy
7:40(ish) pace as I had planned.
After seeing my mom cheering me on up the only actual hill
at mile 5, I resolved to feel comfortable and worry about time later. By mile 8
I was all over the chart. Some 7:15 miles, some 7:40s, a super-quick bathroom
stop, and taking an extra second or two to give high-fives to some pint-sized
Ojai kiddos who had come with their mini-lawn chairs to cheer us on (there is
always time for a run-love high-five). After the first 9 miles, we were released
onto a meandering bike trail that would take us 12 miles down to Ventura. I was
a loose cannon. Pocketing time where I could, taking tangents, letting my legs
do their thing, and ticking off mile after mile with the mantra “the time will
pass anyway” wandering through my mind. By the time I reached mile 20, with 6.2
miles to go, my quads were spent and after checking my watch, I had a little
under an hour to get to the finish line and still qualify for Boston (I usually
run 8 miles in an hour). So instead of pushing the limits and testing my pain/endurance
threshold, I backed off. That’s right; on the threshold of qualifying for my
dream race, I pumped the brakes and coasted with a 10K to go. Rationalizing this with a "don't fall, break, or pull anything and ruin your shot" attitude.
Grinding out those last few miles dropped me down to an
average 8:25 pace, which was pretty disappointing based on what I had trained
for, but I had banked so much time earlier in the race, that it cushioned the
slowing. My biggest day-to-day champion and insanely supportive best friend, Camille,
was waiting for me at mile 23. Cow bell in hand and what I thought was a
tie-dye shirt beacon, all she shouted was “CATCH THE UNICORN” and that was
enough! It was the longest 5K ever getting to that finish line because there
was a fire in my heart, but a fatigue in the rest of me that formed a rather
staggering juxtaposition. I didn’t feel a thing the last ~quarter mile as I
barreled (it felt like barreling, but was really 7:30 pace) down the flat
beachside harbor trail across the finish line in 3 hours and 25 minutes
(officially 3:25:51).
All the feelings came up at once. The deed was done! My
sister came running down the beach and as she turned the corner to meet me
staggering down the chute, I noticed a giant unicorn on her shirt. And my mom
trailing behind her had one too! My dad, naturally, was clad in a bright purple
tie-dye unicorn t-shirt to match. WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE? My sister wrapped me in
a massive hug with a “you caught the unicorn!” and it all came together. These
are my people. I welled with watery eyes and a heart swollen with happiness.
This is what being alive is all about!
And now that I am showered, somewhat rested, punishingly
sore, and able to function at a reasonable level, it turns out I came in 3rd
place for my age group and 277th out of ~1700 total marathon racers
for the day. Not too shabby for my second marathon. I have a lot of experience
to gain and some really stellar role models to learn from (Erin, Chris, Meg,
and The San Francisco Marathon Ambassador team, I’m looking at you!), but I am
also sincerely satisfied with the race and the results overall!
Adore. :)
ReplyDeleteYou, my dear, are a ROCKSTAR!! Smart, fun racing and AMAZING support! Way to chase that unicorn! Can't wait to see you soon (hopefully sometime before SFM). CONGRATS!!!!
ReplyDeleteYou really ARE a rockstar. Amazing!!!
ReplyDeleteYou chose an ambitious goal, trained accordingly and executed! Love it!
ReplyDelete-Will M.